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THIS MONTH’S FEATURED STORY
“I was born in Canyon Lake, Texas to my mother who was only fourteen. When she went to prison, my little brother was also taken by CPS. Dealing with those losses caused me to start acting out and I was put in behavioral classes in second grade. My days were spent with kids who were a lot older than me and considered bad. Being in that environment, I started picking up on everything I shouldn’t do. In sixth grade though, I was sent to alternative school and that became the first time I tried drugs like weed, Xanax, alcohol, and smoking cigarettes. After that I became truant in the ninth grade, and I was then put into self-paced classes so I could finish my credits. The choice was mine, graduate or go to jail for truancy. I was able to complete it all in seven months and graduated when I was around sixteen or seventeen.
After graduation, I started smoking meth. It wasn’t until I came to treatment that I stopped smoking, before I never quit. At first it was fun. The partying, the adventure, and staying up all night. I started getting involved with crime which led to getting arrested. I didn’t want to go to prison. One thing that always confused me was why every single one of my friends except me was either in prison or going soon. That was something that weighed heavily in my head.
When I came to treatment, I talked to someone on the staff about the guilt I carried. They told me that maybe the reason I wasn’t in the same position as everyone else was because I had a purpose. My purpose could be to help others going through the same things I went through. Eventually, I got over the guilt I was feeling. Instead of wallowing in self-pity about what shouldn’t or didn’t happen, I tried to be more grateful for not having to go to prison and essentially getting another chance. While I spent time getting treatment, I learned to surrender results and let God handle outcomes rather than trying to control it myself.
Today I feel a confidence that I never had or felt before in my life, even before the drugs and alcohol. I suffered from anxiety and paranoia due to the Xanax and meth but even those have both gone away. I am now able to see the big picture and I am more in touch with my reality. Those were my biggest reasons for getting sober. I could feel my sanity going away. As far as my finances, I don’t have to worry about money even when I don’t have much of it. Once again, I am surrendering the results and coming to find that I always end having exactly what I need. My past friendships were more like acquaintances and people I was just associated with. Today I am building and cultivating relationships with people that are far more complex and meaningful than they ever have been. I am no longer in fear about the future and what’s to come. Today, I am excited for my future.”
- Brian T.